November 28th, 2008

So I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving =)
it`s funny how I always eat more ham than turkey

So how was everyone`s Black Friday?
Whether you participate or not .. it`s OD crazyy ..
This is the 1st time I went shopping on black friday cuz I usually really hate shopping in huge crowded stores .. it`s wayy too chaotic .. but I really wanted to get a TV for my pops for xmas .. he really deserves it .. he works so hard for us to try to have a good life.
Anyways .. waiting on line was KILLER .. we got there at 2AM .. Best buy opened at 5 .. so we hadd quite a long time to wait.
When we got there, the line was already a couple blocks long && it was quickly growing
People were trying to cut lines, and rush ahead .. it was some crazy shit man.
Cops had to patrol the whole shit && get people to cooperate.
Best buy started giving out tickets at 3AM && opened at 5 .. we finally got in at 630 ..
It was insane .. i swear i never seen anything like that in my life .. some people were seriously acting like savages trying to get in
The line had to be AT LEAST half a mile long or more.
We did end up getting what we were looking for, && it was a good sale but damn ..

In Long Island on Black Friday today, a Wal-Mart employee got trampled to death by the shoppers waiting in line .. Link
Thousands of people were lined up to hit the deals at Wal-Mart && when the doors opened up, they ran in and fuckin trampled him man ..
People cracked windows && even dented the metal doors && took them off the hinges ..
When employees were trying to get people out of the store because someone had died, no one even cared .. they just kept shopping

What happened to human beings? Aren`t we supposed to be civilized people? I thought we had morals, ethics. This is some crazy shit .. People were acting like savages && wild animals all for discounted shit we don`t even really need but want .. Things we think we need to survive.
This doesn`t make us any better than any animal that doesn`t know any better .. We`re acting like we don`t know any better .. Like there`s nothing wrong with taking someones life over something like material things.

It`s like we`re slaves to consumer products. We`re slaves to the dollar && the discount.

&& at the same time, as we speak, terrorist attacks are happening in Mumbai, India .. Poeple are being taken hostage, murdered .. lives are being stolen.

We`re not human beings anymore, were monsters.

It`s a damn shame.

The human race will quickly learn to live sustainably once its greatest minds are no longer awestruck by egotistical ideologies and theologies that divide humanity, and no longer find themselves wasting valuable human and natural resources in the development, design, production, marketing and sales of worthles products. - Earon Davis

can`t

I don`t think i can do this urban word thing.
I went to the 1st meeting thing today and .. damn ..
these people are soo much better than me ..
my shit is like amatuer nursery rhymes compared to their shit.
i`m thinking of just stopping here and not competing.
ima make a damn fool outta myself if i step on stage
i don`t think i`m ready for this.

November 21st, 08

I made it farther along ..
to the Urban Word semi-finals
=D

Poetry is thoughts that breathe, and words that burn. - Thomas Gray

hoela.

i`m scared about tomorrow. nervous. gut wrenching. stomach ache - acid churning .. fear.
i just gotta keep thinking .. i`ll never see these people again. I have nothing to lose. If I do bad, they`ll just be happier that I helped them get closer to winning.
Mabey I should picture the whole naked audience thing .. ?
I don`t even know how big of an audience this is going to be. Hopefully it is just the small group of judges.

Old poem. About my fav. place. Born && raised =)

Brooklyn

My Home.

It smells like ..

The burnin of bud in a rolled philly blunt.

Newport 100 `s smoked to the butt.

Food, a variety to choose from in our diverse meltin pot.

The smell of sweat in the summer, just people havin fun, no front.

It tastes like ..

The cold hard cement, as your almost struck by a stray shot.

Barbeque ribs, burgers && chicken from that party down the block.

Dirty ass money, hustlers oblivious to get caught.

Ashes && debris, 9/11 we bravely fought.

It sounds like ..

Car alarms ringing off, drivers runnin red lights.

The silent hum of bums, surviving the streets with all their might.

The roar of dolla vans along Utica && Flatbush, that `s the Brooklyn life.

Artists workin hard, dreamin to shine with NYC `s bright lights.

It looks like ..

Dirty, filthy subways, the only way to get around.

Those hilarious transit signs of the lost && found.

The home of Big Papa, Brooklyn `s Hip Hop crowned.

Family, friends, food, baby mama drama so loud.

It feels like ..

Up `s && down `s and Highs && low `s.

Noisy, raging, crazy, sexy, cool

&& so,

that `s what makes us so unique, tourists flock to this abode.

No matter what, this will always be

my heart, my soul.

My home.

Brooklyn.

Urban

Word.

College Fair && Poetry Slam at Madison Sq. Garden .. Sat. 11/15 10AM-5PM
IT`S FREE !
So def. go check it out

www.knickspoetryslam.com
www.urbanwordnyc.com

I think I am gonna audition for that poetry slam .. you get money for college if you win .. so that would be some HOT FiA type shitt =P
The poems have to be a min long. After you get called back from auditions .. you do the whole like semi-finalist/finalist thing and go to some workshops .. but hey .. I really need that college money and I would love to perform .. only .. i`m hella nervous .. I care WAY too much about what people think of me .. and I always think people think negatively towards me so that don`t help ..
Anyways .. this is the poem i`m performing .. it`s like 3 mins. long right now so I`m gonna have to super edit && condense so it can fit the guidelines.
Wish me luck ?
It kinda sucks.

Love.
Dictionary definition :
A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
This is the beautiful feeling I have for my boyfriend, you see,
Behind my slighty slanted almond eyes,
and his deep, dark chocolate skin
lies a love so sweet, even Hershey`s can`t create.
Locked up in chains of passion so strong,
no man can break.
With compassion and caring so nice,
no devil can take.
Well, then how come as soon as we`re out in public
all I can feel is hate ?
As we sit holding hands on the Uptown B
I look around feeling extremely uneasy
I then notice all eyes are on me
and as soon as the doors open up to 34th Street,
A woman walks slowly up to our seat
and that`s when she says -
Stay with your own damn kind.
He don`t want you.
She looks at us disgustingly and leaves
as we stare in speechless shock.
No yelling out curse words,
no flipping the bird,
Just .. Silence.
Like a deer caught in societies headlights,
eyes lost in a whirl
not knowing what to do or say,
or what action to take,
I`m feeling like I gotta hurl,
but all that spews out is - anger
flaming through me higher than a 50 cent crack lighter
and while my boyfriend tries to calm me down a bit faster,
all that runs through my mind now is - confusion.
How - how can we be living in the worlds diverse melting pot,
only to find a leak
and because of ignorance,
we go out and seek -
a quick fix.
As rich culture drips out, racism, sexism, and assimilation
gets poured in
to replace the space with which we create
and a Government band - aid covers the hole to save face.
Now how can we save the face of this earth ?
We all need to learn, not degrade
and we need to teach our children to love, not to hate.
We can`t just see the world in black and white,
and we gotta get together to end the violence and strife
and instead,
willingly replace knives with pens,
and use our mouths as guns
to shoot out words of wisdom and silly puns
to stab out hearts with love and feelings of grace
so we can listen to each other in non - judgemental embrace.
We .. need .. to .. love.
Sitting holding hands on the Uptown B
Now we`ve reached 59th Street
And as I slowly doze off in my boyfriends arms
I picture us twisting and contorting,
morphing - into a beautiful striped bumblebee.
Pollenating words of justice as if it we`re the next best allergy.
Stinging the minds of the ignorant with understanding.
Until they no longer see us in black and yellow,
but in red.
The color of the fire and passion in our souls
and the color of the lust and care in our hearts.
Red.
That`s the color of love.

Yes We Can.

It`s crazy, I`ve never really felt this way before in my life. I feel .. like .. empowered, mabey even reborn?
I have new hope for the future of my life and for our country.

I`ve actually never been involved in politics before this election. Something in him made me tune in && want to learn && be interested in the politics of this country.
I feel so great that he was elected because I know he will make a change, && because he really did something to people. He made so many people decide to get up && help to change their lives && their future .. he empowered so many people to vote .. people who have never voted in their lives got up && waited on block long lines just to cast their ballot for him. That`s some powerful shit man. I wish I could`ve voted, but now I know I will want to when the time comes that I can vote.

It`s so amazing for me to be a part of such an important piece of history like this. He`s opened up doors for all people of color to persue dreams of higher learning, and power, and he proves that anything is possible. Seriously.

Mabey one day we`ll see an asian, latino, && a woman become president.

Everyone gets stuck in a rut from time to time, and it`s up to us as the United States of America to stand up as one && progress towards a better future for ourselves, and our next generations to come, and I think Obama is going to be the person to lead us in doing that .. Especially with him being bi-racial .. he has seen && experienced both sides of the story, && because he is two ethnicities mixxed as one, he can help us break the color lines and be in unity as one.

I feel like finally, I have a president who won`t forget about us, the low && middle class of this country. We make up the majority of this nation and I`ve never felt like any president we had has helped us enough && given us what we need to better our life situations.
I hope that whoever was involved in this huge mark of history will be empowered and encouraged to break down barriers and work together towards a new, peaceful America.
One step at a time.

Remember all the people who fought so hard && risked their lives just to put that 15th amendment - the right to vote - onto the constitution .. all the people who dedicated their lives to change, and killed Jim Crowe, and fought on to the path of equality.
Every vote counts.

If you`re walking down the right path && you`re willing to keep walking, eventually you`ll make progress - Barack Obama