Merry Belated Xmas.
=)

THROWWBACKK !

yeah so I was bored .. looking through shit
&& I found some old ass throwback pics && poems from yours truly.
It`s crazy to see how much i`ve grown.
i`m such a completely different person now.



^^^ yeah .. I had to be like 12-14 in those pics .. && now i`m thinking .. what the fuck is a 12-14 yr. old doing with a tounge && lip piercing, makeup, taking pics on a webcam, && doing god (&& I) knows what else .. ?
I was && still am too grown for my own good.
I don`t even remember having a childhood .. I had to grow up fast because of whatever shit happened to me when I was young ..
I want a chance to be the kid I never got to be.
No drugs, No pain, No stress, No heartbreak.
Just careless fun && innocence.

OKKKK .. no more .. i`m starting to sound odee EMO.

I`m gonna end this with a goodnitee =)
I`ll post throwback poems && shit l8ter.
Quincy I love you <3

We grow neither better nor worse as we get old, but more like ourselves - May Lamberton

Wack poem

Cuz i`m bored.
Enjoy the corny video game references =)

It`s a war zone down there && I can`t sleep.
Bombs are being thrown
Bullets firing
I feel like running for cover cuz of all the yelling && screaming.
It`s a war zone down there && I can`t sleep
especially since my man is the biggest suspect.
He`s been drafted into this war for years now,
fighting mystical creatures since he was young
&& like laundry being dried out && hung
he just drifts in the wind
running round fantasy deserts && deserted plains.
Getting caught bombing in the war torn rain.
&& I always pray that he`ll be okay
but he say
I`ll be up in a minute.
As I anxiously wait upstairs for his triumphant return
I`m scared he is MIA.
Missing in the action packed suspense of his game.
I want so badly for him to cuddle up with me in bed before I go insane
But he can`t .. && he don`t
Cuz it`s a war zone down there && he won`t sleep.
As he`s racing through dark alleyways of Metal Gear Solid && Halo 3
My mind is racing through thoughts
hoping leaving him won`t be my final fantasy.
Because I love him too much
But he won`t come to sleep
Until his friends finally sign offline
&& he murders every last enemy.
Constant zoning out && button mashing are my only fondest memories.
Cuz it`s a war zone down there && neither of us can sleep.
Now he finally returns as a Prisoner Of War.
Xbox && PS3 have captured his mind.
They torture me so bad when they make him play one more time
&& he can`t escape when vibrating controllers take hold of his tired fingers && eyes.
They look dry && bloodshot upon his return.
Redder than any enemy blood after bombings && burns.
Then he comes over to lay next to me.
I feel him gently kiss me on the cheek
Yet i`m quietly pretending to be asleep
so he won`t see my tears.
All choked up
not knowing what to do or say
Cuz I know he`s going to fight again
the very next day.
It`s a war zone down there && we can`t sleep.
When will there finally be peace ?

Reflection

So I have to reflect on my english project ..

The topic I`m writing about is food security. I`ve written about it before but I`m really interested and this project involves like a art related piece .. so it would be cool to do a collage or photo montage or something about it.

I don`t really have alot to say right now .. i`m real tired and not in a bloggin mood ..
I haven`t slept enough this whole week

But then again I can`t complain .. Ms. Arkin loses tons of sleep because she`s up worrying about us or working on our college stuff ..
And I bet all our teachers deal with the same ..
i probably get so much more sleep than them .. but still i`m tired .. i don`t have enough sleep to function ..

anyways .. food security .. not enough healthy produce in low income neighborhoods .. homeless with not enough food to eat .. food pantries and shelters with not enough food to give out .. growing obesity and diabetes problem .. recession causing unemployment to rise, causing homeless population to rise .. healthy food costs too much for people .. too much fast food and unhealthy food in low income neighborhoods all over NYC .. you get the point.

I`m looking foward to writing more about the issue and doing a cool photo collage or documentary =)

If only I didn`t have all this work to do.
The pressure is killing me.

December 10th, 2008

I feel extra lonely today =/
Today is real bummy ..

I actually did homework today .. 1st time in like a year man
and I really like sat down and did that shit .. and when I finished I had madd papers
with work on it ..
Bad thing is .. I didn`t finish my homework.

Check out Postsecret this week ..
It has alott of interesting secrets && I can relate to quite a few
www.postsecret.com

Urban Word discourages me every time I go.

It`s easy to have faith in yourself && have discipline when you`re a winner, when you`re number one. What you`ve got to have is faith && discipline when you`re not yet a winner - Vince Lombardi